A Little Voice Whispers

“You know why the cat has started sleeping on your bed, don’t you?” My mum said. “It’s because he knows you’re not well.” It hadn’t even occurred to me, so wrapped up in my grief have I been.

I tried to write a poem before. I wanted to write about this depression. But the only lines that made any sense were ‘give her back to me,’ ‘the bluntness of this existence,’ and ‘an audience for this nightmare.’

The loneliness of this experience is like nothing I’ve ever struggled through before. I check my phone for signs of life so often I feel disgusted with myself. Several times a day I’ll Google ‘depression has taken everything,’ or something like that, and I’ll click onto the Reddit forums or Quora. I’ll see, I’ll see other people are suffering, but a little voice whispers ‘you’re all alone in this…’ and I’ll believe it.

4 thoughts on “A Little Voice Whispers”

  1. I appreciate your knowledge and talent with regard to nature, creativity, folklore, and more. I’m always glad to read what you have to say. You’re not alone, though certainly it can feel that way. And sometimes it feels pretty totally lonely. The numinous, special as it is, does not feel enough. I am not good at reaching out, though finally I’ve learned to. I do it badly. Awkwardly and late. Not to say I know your situation, but I hope you keep at this (Wyrd Words and Effigies) and keep engaging overall.

    1. I’m overwhelmed by your kindness, thank you so much! I’m slowly, slowly starting to feel better. Taking it an hour at a time. Wyrd Words & Effigies is always at the forefront of my mind, and I want to keep at it always. 🙂

  2. Im so glad you posted, I was getting very worried about you. i realize you dont know me, and there is really nothing I can do too help, but please know I look forward to reading what you write. I miss you when you arent writing.

    1. Thank you so much for taking the time to reach out to me. When I logged on this morning and saw a notifcation on my post, I felt less alone and more able to face the day. Thank you again. I will try and write another post soon.

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

Google photo

You are commenting using your Google account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s