I’ve Said Goodbye To Depression

Yesterday I said goodbye to depression after an almost year long episode. I know one day we'll inevitably meet again, but I hope against hope that day is an extremely long fucking way away. In other news, I have another song for you from my band Cave Mouth. Only Night Now is about being in… Continue reading I’ve Said Goodbye To Depression

Good Things That Have Happened This Week

New Boots Anyone who knows me well will know that, for the past decade, I've been wearing French Ranger boots. I've walked my way through several pairs, only getting rid when the soles have worn through. I've always bought them from the same place without a problem, but for some reason last year, I thought… Continue reading Good Things That Have Happened This Week

How I Know I’m In Recovery From Depression

It's Easier To Get Up In The Morning When I was in the depth of my depression, waking up in the morning was the very worst part of the day. I lost count of the number of times that I woke up and muttered "for fuck's sake," because I was still alive. Physically, it felt… Continue reading How I Know I’m In Recovery From Depression

Finding Light In The Blackout

My creative output for the past several months has been pretty much nonexistent. Even as I type this, I worry that I won't be able to convey exactly just how fucking difficult it's been - and still is - because my brain is all fog and no substance. But I'm better than I was a… Continue reading Finding Light In The Blackout

I’ve Lost My Anchor

'Don't bother, you stupid fuck, nobody gives a shit whether they hear from you or not.' That's what depression is telling me as I write this from my bed. But I'm pressing on regardless. It's been over four months since I started feeling depressed, only this time has been worse than any of the other… Continue reading I’ve Lost My Anchor

Quotes Of The Depressed

It's been...a day. I wanted to write to you about several things today; a fountain pen, a poppet made of human hair the Finnish folk/black metal project Wyrd. But my trusted words failed me and left me spending much of the afternoon coiled around my pillow blasting myself with rays from my light therapy lamp.… Continue reading Quotes Of The Depressed

I’m Not Ok

I'm quietly freaking out at the moment. I'm sick, sick to death of coming to the end of each day and asking myself, 'well, what was that for?' I've reduced my sertraline over the past two weeks, and while the fog has dispersed slightly, I'm still struggling to feel, I'm struggling to create, I'm struggling… Continue reading I’m Not Ok

Wyrd Words Book Club : My Heart Is A Forest PDF

For anyone who would like to read my poetry collection My Heart Is A Forest and support my work, PDF copies are available at my Etsy store for just £1! A father kills an elusive pale fox and pays for the death with his sanity. The Barghest, Black Annis and other dark creatures of British… Continue reading Wyrd Words Book Club : My Heart Is A Forest PDF