I've Lost My Anchor

'Don't bother, you stupid fuck, nobody gives a shit whether they hear from you or not.' That's what depression is telling me as I write this from my bed. But I'm pressing on regardless. It's been over four months since I started feeling depressed, only this time has been worse than any of the other… Continue reading I've Lost My Anchor

Quotes Of The Depressed

It's been...a day. I wanted to write to you about several things today; a fountain pen, a poppet made of human hair the Finnish folk/black metal project Wyrd. But my trusted words failed me and left me spending much of the afternoon coiled around my pillow blasting myself with rays from my light therapy lamp.… Continue reading Quotes Of The Depressed

I’m Not Ok

I'm quietly freaking out at the moment. I'm sick, sick to death of coming to the end of each day and asking myself, 'well, what was that for?' I've reduced my sertraline over the past two weeks, and while the fog has dispersed slightly, I'm still struggling to feel, I'm struggling to create, I'm struggling… Continue reading I’m Not Ok

Wyrd Words Book Club : My Heart Is A Forest PDF

For anyone who would like to read my poetry collection My Heart Is A Forest and support my work, PDF copies are available at my Etsy store for just £1! A father kills an elusive pale fox and pays for the death with his sanity. The Barghest, Black Annis and other dark creatures of British… Continue reading Wyrd Words Book Club : My Heart Is A Forest PDF

You’re Doing Ok, Wolf Heart

It's my birthday today. I'm 33. I'm also perhaps the most depressed that I've been in as long as I can remember. This depression that I've been experiencing isn't the same as what I'm used to though. The tides of grief feel different somehow and I don't know why. And these tides terrify me. Every… Continue reading You’re Doing Ok, Wolf Heart

Thinking In The Dark : When It’s Hard To Go On

It's hard to move forward right now. I think it might be the side effects of my new medication. Or it might be the weight of the past six months bearing down on me. Bringing down to the kitchen the cup of tea that I made last night and didn't drink because I was too… Continue reading Thinking In The Dark : When It’s Hard To Go On

Queen Of Wyrd

2019 so far? Honestly, what the fuck was that? Every month for me has had its nasty troubles, and I find it somewhat remarkable that I’m still here writing to you. (There are some fantastic memes that have helped me through the quagmire of 2019 so I think I’ll do a post just for them… Continue reading Queen Of Wyrd

DIY In The Dark : Icicle Earrings

My moods have been cycling so rapidly recently that I don't know which way is up. I have to repeatedly ask what day/date it is and I'm zoning out all the time. Waking up crying has become the norm and I'm being referred to a heart specialist because the medication I've been on for ten… Continue reading DIY In The Dark : Icicle Earrings